Saturday, July 16, 2016 10:21 PM by kelly
I have been with my now ex boyfriend for 7 years. I met him in high school and I fell in love with him and he was my first love. But I wasn't his. His first love was some other girl in our same high school who he deeply cared about and humans I were hair friends at the time. Moving forward she broke his heart and I was always there for him and he was emotionally unstable after that but I still continued to be by his side hoping he would get over it and like me. He eventually did and we started talking and going out more and being bf and gf. We've been like that since 2013 and I've known him since 2009. I love him and cared about him a lot but we started having small problems and he would never show emotions towards me of be closed off and wouldn't be too affectionate. We had sex and all that but it was like we didn't play a role as be and gf cause we never made it official. It was everything but titles. And we wouldn't we too plubic unless we were alone. I tried and kept trying but we would get into small arguments or be bad but we would also have good days and we cared about each other a lot and had good times and we talked about anything but then I met this guy at work and he gave me attention and acted like a real bf even tho he had a gf at the time and I knew that it couldn't happen cause I also had my guy. But then me and my coworker started talking more and texting and hanging out and one day we kissed. I felt horrible and we talked that it couldn't happen anymore but then it did and we eventually had sex. I didn't know what was wrong with me. How can I do that to someone. I'm such a bad person for doing that. I never told my bf about it until he found out and then I tried to cover it up cause I didn't want him to leave me but then we started getting good again and I still continued to talk to the co worker and eveb after my coworker broke up with his gf he was red to be with me and we kept going out and having sex and then my bf found out the whole truth even after I told him I wouldn't talk to my coworker anymore yet I did behind my bus back and he found out the whole truth even that I slept with my co worker. He ended it with and according to him, I am dead to him. I made a huge mistake in lying and cheating on my bf and I deserve all he bad things that come to me. I am 20 years old and my ex is 21. After I tried covering up the first time I told my ex that I wouldn't talk to him anymore and I would cut off all contact but I didn't and he gave me a second chance and then when he found out the whole truth that even after I told him I would stop talking to the co worker and especially that I slept with the coworker he was devastated and broken. I made a huge mistake. Something I can't forgive myself for. He didn't deserve that and now I'm regretting all of what happened. What I did to my ex.