Saturday, March 19, 2016 1:29 PM by twobytes
Jeeze. Where to start?
Been married for two years. I have been with my husband for eight total. Engaged four of those years. He had been married for years before me, had kids and was increadably against marrying me to start with. He had a terrible marriage and cheated on his wife back then. I wasn't a virgin at all before I met him and experimented with drugs/women etc. When I met him I was fresh out of rehab and a train wreck. He came from a short term relationship with an old co-worker who quickly moved in with him. I moved in with him after three dates. We moved super fast. Fucked on the first night we met and fucked for six weeks straight everyday. He's amazing in bed.
So lately we've been fighting. A lot. Just over trivial things. Life just has been shit for me lately. Daddy problems, too much drinking, I've been popping pills lately (prescribed) and smoking pot. I feel like I'm regressing into my old self and that scares the FUCK out of me. He hates my smoking, I hate his constant complaning. He hates my laziness on my days off, I hate his constant need for perfection. We haven't had sex in three weeks. He's mad of course.
Meanwhile, I've been thinking about leaving him. Specfically about leaving him for someone I know. I just don't know if I have any fight in me anymore. I don't know what to do. I daydream about having sex with this man. I text him secretly. He tried to kiss me the other night but I refused. Then he said he understood. I respected him for that.
I don't know what to do at all. Please don't call me a whore. I just want some advice. Thank you.