I've been married for 13 years and love my wife more than she'all ever know or understand.

Last year our marriage took a course for the worse, she let it slip that she wanted to know how a bigger penis would feel and me being me said we'll go find out. Not thinking she would she went online and found a stranger who she ended up meeting. I found out as I found the details on her computer, she was arranging to meet him the next day after dropping the kids off to school. I said to her to go into town for dog food as he has ran out, and on the way in I text her and let her knew I had found the information and that if she wanted to do it to just meet this guy who stayed about 200 yards away from the shop. She said that she didn't want to and it was a stupid fantasy, so I gave her the option to either tell me the truth over things in the bed room department and how she truly thought of me downstairs or go do it. This went on with texts back and fourth for about 10 minutes when finally she said I have to go, he's on his way.

40 minutes later I got a text saying "Call me!" So I did and she was in tears on the phone saying he stuck it in her and she didn't want to go that far. I was confused, but she stated she only wanted to know if jerking and sucking a larger penis was going to be more enjoyable. I told her to go to the police but she refused.

She finally arrived home in tears wanting a shower, she talked to me and told me that she went in to his flat and he reached in to take her jacket off, she was a bit nervous and said that she would take it off, which she did and he throw it into a corner. After which he reached into to kiss her, she said to him that she had never done anything like this before, and he said no problem. He then reached in again to kiss and she kiss back.

This went on for a few minutes before he guided her hand down into his pants to jerk him off. She states he was definitely thicker (girth wise) and a bit longer in size. She stated he was easier to hold on to and easier to jerk off. He was about 8.5 inches long and very thick. For reference I'm only 7 inches and not very thick girth wise.

Any he then proceeded to reach into her underwear and finger her, she says she enjoyed this and started to get wet.

After awhile and having been kissing her breasts and fingering her along with her tugging him, he started to strip her and himself, soon they were both nude. He asked if she wanted to suck and she agreed so he gently placed her on the edge of the bed (sitting down) and he stood in front of her whilst she attempted to suck him. She says she couldn't do it as she kept gagging and could only get his tip in her mouth. After a few minutes he asked if she wanted to try with him lying down and again she agreed. So he lay down on the bed and she crawled to the middle of the bed and tried again. He was fingering her and she says he started to stretch her and it was hurting and that she still couldn't suck him properly and wasn't enjoying it. He demanded that she suck his balls, so she crawled between his legs and tried to suck them.

She found it difficult as they hung far from his penis and they were much bigger than mine, she did get them in her mouth but they kept falling out. About a minute later he got up and she thought he had enough and was going to get their clothes.

However he crawled back up onto the bed between her legs and tried to insert his penis into her vagina. She said instantly "I don't want to go that far" to which he repeated the words and added "Ok".

He started to then kiss his way up her body and suck her nipple etc, which relaxed her. He then started to kiss downwards and she got a bit nervous when he got close to her vagina as she didn't want him to lick her out. He didn't and started to work his way back up and on doing so tried to insert his penis again. She didn't say anything but edged up the bed until she got to the headboard and couldn't go further and he inserted his penis.

She says she was angry but it didn't hurt and enjoyed the first few minutes but when he tried putting more in it hurt her and she didn't like it. His mate knocked the door and he shh'd her (told her to be quiet) but she says she wasn't making any noises for him to say this and she was confused. His mate left and he started again and again she enjoyed it until he again tried putting more in. After a few minutes she says he noticed that she was screwing her face up and asked her if she was ok to which she shook her head. He then asked do you want to stop, she nodded and he then said do you want to go home to which she hooded again. He pulled out and started to get her clothes, and the both got dressed. She picked up her items (mobile and dog food) and he asked if she knew the way back to the bus stop to which she answered yes.

This is when she texted "Call me".

I noticed her underwear had a wet patch to which she blanked and said I don't know what it is. I though ok and left it at that. 

I decided since I knew the site and knew the guy she was taking to and meet up with to message him and ask how he was and if he enjoyed it. He stated yes it was fun and I simply asked "when did you cum in me" and he replied "When you were moaning and had your legs wrapped around me, I thought you knew". I simply typed back "I wasn't sure" to which he replied back "I'm not a loud cummer". I quickly replied back "ah ok lol".  He then text back asking "It was fun let's arrange another meet sometime, take care".

i confronted my wife and said to her what he said "remembering he though he was speaking to you" her replied was "are you going to believe a stranger over your wife?".  I will let you all know my wife is a compulsive liar.

i went I don't know but you have to tell me the truth. To cut a long story short we have went from her enjoying jerking him to her not being able to do it. We've went from her being wet and enjoying it to her just liking it as in it was just ok nothing special.  She states she never enjoyed him in her. Her words being it felt like you! "Charming I know".!!!  She is also stating she never once made a sound when he was fingering her and having sex with her. This is difficult to believe as she makes noises all the time with me and even makes a noise when a doctor is examining her.

The thing is she's told that many lies and different versions and states that she got nothing from it, but yet 1 year later still doesn't do things for me in the bedroom department and ignores me on anything and everything. We have 2 kids and even though she's been lying to me I still do love her and want to be with her. My issue is I can't stand the lies.

Am I being stupid in thinking that there has been more enjoyment than she is letting on? Or thinking that she's went there not wanting the sex but after having seen his penis and getting excited with his size and him fingering her etc that she's just decided to go all out and end up doing everything without her saying "I don't want to go that far"?

Im so confused and really need advice, if she didn't enjoy jerking him and couldn't do it as she's now stating, why would she say that instantly, knowing it would hurt me?  I have done everything in my power to have fun in the bedroom department, but she just does the same old things over and over again, saying "no" to me on everything I suggest to spice things up.

Please help, I'm so lost.