Well I have been with the guy im with for about 7 months. This is my first long distant relationship,and we still havent met. we talk everyday and i love him more than i have ever loved anyone. well anyways i love him so much i wanted to did somethin he wanted me to do but it involved me sleeping with someone. well at an rate i did it the only issue is i didnt tell him that i did when it started, bnut he eventually found out, but he did get whar he wanted. he wasnt mad that i slept with someone it was i lied to himbout it. im not trying to justfy may action for any reason. but i have never cheated in a relationship before this thats, and even tho i knew he woild nessserally care i still felt horrible why i lied about it. well at any rate he told me he wasnt gonna leave me because he loves my kid. but im afraid he will never believe me or trust or really be in love again. and that wold break my heart becausr he is my sould mate and i love him to peices. i feel hoorrible for what i did and im trying to show him that i will never lie or cheat again and he is the only one i want. and i want to see him so bad.

am i wrong for wanting things to wor out or nieave for wanting that? i just want to meet him more than and want it to work.