Friday, January 22, 2016 9:24 AM by Guest
Me and my ex boyfriend met each other sophomore year moved in with eachother really quickly and have spent the last four years of our lives together i am now 19 years old, him and lost our virginity t o eachother, it all started with my new job, theres was a guy there very tall very cute blue eyes.I started finding myself thinking what if. What if I was good eniugh for someone like that.Things with my boyfriend at that time were pretty dull.I did feel like he showed me enough attention. It felt like the same routine everyday go to work come home play the video game and go to sleep. I started working out of town where I met this guy..at first it just started out as we would smoke after work together to me texting him, I felt I was getting that attention I had been begging for from my ex..One night I was invited to his house..I took him up on his offer..That's when I ruined my life..I cheated on the one i.love on the one i have began building my life with..we only ever loved eachother we only ever had sex with eachother...I knowing regret it for the rest of my life..I lost the one i knew I was in love with just for a little bit of attention. I now know what I had but not until I lost it forever..I just can't get over the fact that I still believe we are meant to be together..I feel that there may be forgivness in his heart..or maybe i am just selfish to think that...IDK I'm just lost!