Thanks for taking time to read this.  I have been with my boyfriend for 3 years now. The first year of our relationship was perfect. Than I found out he was asking girls from his old school for pictures because his friends wanted them. The girls messaged me and told me but I believed him that he wanted nothing to do with them. Months went by and everything was great. He is super sweet and always complimented me and made me feel perfect and we were so happy. About a year later he started hanging out with new friends and they would party a lot. He has anger problems but never did anything to me except we would fight sometimes about dumb things. He went to this same house to party for months and I knew girls were always there but I never thought anything of it. So now it's june and I found out from this girl that apparently they hooked up but my boyfriend doesn't recall at all. The girl said it was a one time thing and they never talked after that. My boyfriend cried and said he doesn't remember anything. He was acting different around these friends. Trying to fit in or something. I also heard he would flirt with girls at these parties but the girls weren't cute at all so I sort of beleived him.   I wasn't always the best girlfriend either because off and on I would talk to another boy. I don't even know why because he meant nothing to me. But sometime in Febuary I was on spring break with my friends and I cheated on him. He assumes this but I never fully told him the truth so I feel bad. We talked about the rumors of him cheating and he assured me that this would never happen again. Things weren't good at this point. We were both pulling away from eachother and I was constantly mad at him and we would constantly fight. About a month after after the talk we had I found out he cheated on me again. I confronted him and he cried and apologized and just said I deserved better. We decided to end things and we didn't talked for a month and than he messaged me and we kind of talked and than he wrote me a note apologizing and saying I deserve the world and he told me he would fight for me and prove to me that this will never happen again. It's been about two months and he's been trying so hard. writing me notes and sending me flowers and childcare covered strawberries. Wanting to hangout and this is the happiest we've ever been. (He stopped hanging out with the boys he partied with all those months ago also) I'm so torn on what to do because I so heart broken about this. I bring it up all the time to him because I'm so sad. Am I a hypocrite because I haven't told him the truth about me? Should I forget the past and let him prove to me that he'll never do this again? I'm so worried he will again but I'm just not sure. Someone please help, I'm going crazy