Just over twelve months ago I discovered my husband was having an affair withone of our clients from work.Initalially they both refused to acknowledge it was an affair as they had not slept together. They had had numerous "meetings, phone calls and exchanged on average 40 text messages a day.I know he told her he loved her and he wanted to sleep with her. I was absolutely devated to discover the affair. At the time i was still  being treated for breast cancer after having  a bilateral masectomy and reconstruction. My husband and I are still together. We see a marraige counsellor regulary. My issue is I dont know if I still wnat to be with him. I feel totally betrayed. He has since told me he hated how I looked during my treatment which makes me feel like a piece of crap as I spent hours trying to make myself "look nice" so he was not embarrassed being with me. we run our own business and I worked all the way through my chemo to try and make things less stressful. When I ask him why he had to have an affair he just says he was craving attention and that I wasnt their for him. is it my imagination or is this just a pathetic excuse. Honestly I have listened to his excuses for so long now tha I totally doubt myself as to what is right and what is wrong. he keeps telling me he will never do it again but how can I believe him. to me the first time we met a crisis in ur marraige he totally bailed on me.