Friday, April 8, 2016 10:00 AM by Linda T
I have been happily married for over 20 years. My husband and I met very young and we both worked very hard to secure a nice lifestyle to provide our children. My world just came crashing down this week. I learned that 3 years ago my husband allowed a random lady from a bar perform oral sex on him. I found out because every three years or so, i go in for a physical. I received a noticed that i had Chlamydia. Since I knew... I was faithful....I knew it was husband. I confronted him that evening and he only came clean after several days of nagging. He stated, he was drunk and it happend after he left the house because we had gotten into an argument but he didn't sleep with anyone. He only received oral sex. We both cried this week, he asked for forgiveness and i do feel his regret. However, i can't shake it. I imagine it! I picture it! I try hard not to think about it. My children adore there father and are very scared of us divorcing. I already feel I changed. He changed me. My vows mean nothing! All i can't think of is cheating....i want to cause him pain. Not only did he cheat on me, but he put my life in danger! My poor kids have been crying everyday and begging me not to divorce their father. I know that if i stay, i wont be the same person. I can't forgive him because i can't forget. I've changed! is it bad to think about me? and not my children? My Children are elmentary/ middle schoolers... Shoud i wait? Am torn.