Saturday, April 15, 2017 10:09 PM by Guest
I cheated on my boyfriend last wednesday with a guy that I've met through work events. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 8 years, and we're planning to get married soon. We've had many problems over the years, one of the biggest thing is our disagreement on intimacy. Our average is once every 2-3 months... We talked about this over and over, each time he'd promise he'll try harder but he just doesn't seemed interested in having sex with me. Putting that aisde, we love each other dearly and I wasn't planning to cheat on him, ever.
Usually when I go to work cocktail events I always go home after the main event, never went to those after party drinks and careful at avoiding scumbag guys.
This time we started with four people at a chill catchup drinks, two of them left and it was just me and the guy alone. I knew there was a possibility of where it might lead to, but i took the risk because I was enjoying our talks - we were talking about his gf, my bf, our love for dog rescue chairty blah blah blah. I felt he was a really decent person with a big heart, and I did like him just a bit. I clearly overestimated my tolerance and we were both so trashed by the end of the night. He kissed me in the bar, I didn't reject him but right after I said I wanted go home (My drunken instinct to get away perhaps). He said I'll walk you home. I was so drunk I got lost and took a long time for us to find my house. WHen I finally did he grabbed me and made out with me in front of my apartment. I kissed him back. We made out for a good 20 minutes just on the street.
My boyfriends friend might've driven by and seen it. They told him the next day.
I know alcohol is not an excuse and i fucked it up big time. My boyfriend says he doesn't know how to continue on our relationship. One he can't trust me two that his friend saw it so he feels obligated to break up with me.
I feel like a wreck. I can't forgive myself for doing something so terrible. I cheated with a random guy with my love of 8 years. This guy meant nothing. Is there any chance he can still forgive me? I am willing to do a lot to regain his trust. But I don't know if he'll even let me.