Friday, June 17, 2016 10:20 AM by confusedlilshit
I'm 20, have been with my loving boyfriend for 2 years and a couple of months now and have been living happily together.
I am bipolar and I get anxiety attacks and he was the only one who stayed when I have a breakdown about the smallest things, and this is why I appreciate him so much for his patience. This is also why I told myself I will never ever cheat on him. Ever.
He was also the first guy I had sex with. And since I am naturally not a cheater: The only guy I will EVER have sex with.
Since experiencing sex, not until now in our relationship did it come to mind what the experience would be like with a different guy. He asked me if we can have a threesome with a girl, and I didnt mind the idea because that would turn me on too and it would make him happy. But then he asked if I wanted a threesome with a guy. I wanted to tell him the truth and say yes so I can get that experience without cheating on him (since ya know him and the guy will be in the same room). But in that moment, I knew he didn't want me to say yes. And I was right. Days later, he says "I will never get turned on seeing another guy fucking you." So there goes my luck, and I still can't shake this feeling.
I am now planning to see this guy next week and just do it with him one time and never again. I am not going to be telling my boyfriend(or anyone at all) either which makes me feel bad. But it's just one time, never again and nobody is ever going to find out. I just really want to experience it......But should i really do it?