Monday, February 22, 2016 3:03 PM by Guest
I'm 19, my boyfriend is 21. We've been together for two and half years and I love him with all my heart.
I work at a restaurant with a great team and awesome manager. To give some backstory my manager (30 years old) and I have been talking on and off for about 3 months, we started talking when he got my number when we with some staff out for drinks, he was flirting with me all night and asked me to come home with him and I declined. Since then we've talked, I've sent him pictures and that's about as far as it has gone until 3 days ago. I stayed with my friend and some of the staff and my manager for drinks after work, my manger grabbed my hand and took me into the kitchen and kissed me and then we went back to continue parting. we kissed a couple times throughout the night in secret and then he was leaving, he took me outside and asked me to come home with him and I again declined. We kissed a bit more and then he left and I went home. Now fast forward to last night we had our staff party, all the stuff were pretty fucking drunk, we started out on a party bus, went bowling and then went to a bar, a lot of them went home once we got to the bar so it was me, my manager, 2 other girls and one of the bartenders. My manager took me to a booth away from everyone else and we just started taking. I started crying just about some life things and he kissed me and held me to console me. everyone came and found us and was consoling me and we decided to go to my managers house to hang out for a bit. Everyone left so it was just me and my manager... we went to his room and were laying down in bed when he started to kiss me, I told him I couldn't do anything for multiple reasons, first because I have a boyfriend, second because I was way too drunk and third I was on my period lol, he said he didn't care and undressed me. He started sucking my boobs and kissing my body all over, he went down and started eating me out and then got undressed and laid on top of me and started fucking me. I told him to fuck me from behind so he did. It felt so good but I was too drunk to orgasm. He was done quickly as I know he was wishing for this moment for a long time. Once he finished he started to pass out so I gathered my clothes and put them back on and called my boyfriend to pick me up, he thought I was at ones of the girls houses. My manager and I kissed before I left and went home. I'm so hungover today and I feel so numb to it all. It doesn't even really feel like it happened but yet I just keep apologizing to my boyfriend even though he has no idea why. I can't tel him. I've already fucked up our relationship before by being an idiot and I really really don't want to lose him. I'm such an awful girlfriend. I told myself I would never chef on him ever, and I genuinely thought I wouldn't. I texted my manager today and said I was sorry for last night and that it can never happen again, he agreed and apologized to. I guess I'm on here just to vent about it.