So, its kind of a long story, but im sure, its worth to read. Me (27) and my bf (27) have been together over 4 yrs now. We was both married when we met at my job. 7 months later we moved in together and both got divorced, we was always very happy together, understood each other, had alot of fun and a great sex life. I had to move back to europe (im from europe originally) and he stayed in the US, has a 6 yr old girl, with his ex, and since he owe child support, the state didnt allow him to get his passport and come with me, but i could not stay longer either because of my visa. This was in 2014. So i had to leave him, and i could not afford to come back right away. We had been together 2 years at that time. He hasnt worked since i knew him, i was the only one working. I only mention that cause i find it important, not to make him look bad. So i was home, and we talked thru fb, and viber. The 2nd day i was home i found a pic on his profile with his ex and all his friends. This was an old pic, but he had said that he deleted it, which wasnt true. So i got upset. But i got over it. He hacked my email account about a week after i left. Let me tell you he founnd nothing, even tho my email is connected to all my social media also!! He kept accusing me of cheating, even tho i havent done a single thing to hurt him, i cried many times on the phone, telling him, im not doing anything wrong. I wasnt happy at home, and knowing he didnt work, i havent seen much possibility to see him again any time soon. We kept talking, he still hasnt find any job. He lives with his mom, even till this day. So i was with my family and friends one day, when i met this guy of my childhood, we havent seen each other for years. We started talking but he knew i had a boyfriend. With my boyfriend i was honest about it. But that only made him even more crazy, to the point where he would scream at me for nothing. One day i had enough of no change and i cheated on him. It was nothing serious, more like i was drawn to that other person because of his care for me, it wasnt for the sex. After that happened i told my boyfriend couple days after, and i told him this is the first time, and now he has the reason to be upset, even tho i felt terrible, and it was totally not worth it. So he did the same, he cheated on me too. But he told me that girl makes him happier than i ever had. That made me stop talking to him, not the fact he did it, but his words. I wouldve never said anything like that to him. Anyway, after 2 months, we started talking again, and we both agreed we wanna see each other again. So in 2015 november, i came back, since he started working and payed for my ticket. I was soooo happy. I never imagined myself with anyone else. I have rented myself an apartment couple months later and asked him to come with me, at that time he stopped working again, I believe he was bothered by him not working, but he didnt put enough effort into looking. I was working at all times. So he ended up telling me he dont wanna come with me. He only came to visit me. I was upset because i left my life behind for him, and still he left me alone. So i met a guy at work. We was talking for a while, and it happened, after my boyfriend didnt even bother saying happy bithday to me. I told him, even before it happened on my birthday, and asked him if i can go over to his house, so we can spend the day together, he said no. So weeks after, i moved back with him, and since than its a disaster. I'm always the one working, paying for food, car, clothing, even his child support. I admit i did wrong. But he kinda made me. I was always honest tho. Since last summer 2015, he keeps lying to me, going out for days sometimes. Not long ago i found a pic of him with couple of girls on a bbq party, which i wasnt invited to because it was a "guys night".When i confronted him, he dont seem to care much at all. I feel like he using me for money. Our sex life is gone. He once admitted he cheated for several weeks, and i forgave. But now he is away alot and im literally NEVER invited. He has his fun, and leave me alone as a home girl, who takes care of him. I work alot, to make sure we have everything. Its been 4 years. He is ignorant, and i am not able to have a converstaion with him about it, because he makes me feel its my fault and im very unhappy with everything at this point. He sreams at me and talks very disrespectful to me, and also to his mom, which i dont like either. My father passed away few months ago, and ive never got to see him again. I feel like im wasting my time, but i still love him. Should i change something or just let go and move on? Help, cause i feel like im about to lose my mind. I'll be happy to hear you opinion!
