Monday, December 21, 2015 2:06 PM by Guest
How do you explain an affair without it sounding like a Barbra Courtland novel ? How do you detail all of the conflicting emotions that course through your brain ? How can you rationally explain your actions when your thought process was driven by a rush of hormones and clouded by your secretive desires ? Is it possible to even begin to sit back and write about what you’ve done and make any sense of it ? Thinking about it makes it seem like a dream, I mean acting on impulses and then your mind goes about justifying the.
I hit the whole spectrum of emotions, and I got everything that I imagined. It was all there, dread, fear, excitement, anticipation, disappointment, happiness, love, and anger. The strangest part is that I hadn’t felt so alive and energized in such a long time.
After 30 years of marriage it is so hard to imagine that just the simple touch of a man’s hand on your thigh can send chills up and down your body. That you can look in his eyes and see his desire and it makes you wet. When you’ve spent years letting your husband satisfy himself and not expecting anything the sheer exhilaration of someone exploring every part of your body. Amazed at the sensual pleasure of surrendering your body to him, surprised by the moans that are coming from you, anticipating his hands roaming across my body and leaning in towards them. Then when he’s spent, he lies on top of me, in no hurry to jump up, holding me in his arms giving me deep passionate kisses.
Yes, I had an affair, while I’m not proud of it I certainly do not feel guilty about it either.