Thursday, April 28, 2016 4:55 PM by Spk
I can't believe I am going to write this, but I will just for the simple fact I have been holding it in for so long; too long. Honestly, how do you people even begin to explain your story? I don't know where to start,, haha. I'm just gonna wing it. Well my recent boyfriend I have been with for about 2 years. I got pregnant with him. As I was just turning 4 months pregnant, I was living with him. His grandparents anniversary was coming up and I told him that I would love to go! I had never met them before so it was nice to get to know them before my son came into this world. Well the day came to go to st.louis for their anniversary party and my boyfriend decided not to go, so I was like okay that's fine. I went with his parents to go meet his grandparents for the FIRST TIME. We got our hotel room and I had called him maybe 4 times? No answer and no call back. I didn't want to think any of it because I didn't want to stress about anything for the sake of my son. Well we came home the next day and he was acting real weird. I had that gut feeling like something was wrong, but I ignored it. I wish I didnt. We had sex that night and he told me he loved me. The next morning he left his phone in his kitchen and I read through his messages and seen that he was talking to some bitch about how he got real fucked up on marijuana, alcohol, and Xanax while I was gone. He was complimenting her, saying how much he missed their friendship and how she was always a nice girl. I straight flipped on him, yelling and cussing at him saying I'm 4 months pregnant you fucker! You can have her! We broke up and I went home. Couple days went by and I got back with him. Regret....
He threatens to kill himself if I'm not with him or he'll harm himself in anyway. Told me I was just some bitch he picked up off the curb and made me into who I am today. I'm not aloud to have friends, Facebook, snapchat, or any social media site. I'm not aloud to hangout with anyone. If I do hangout with someone he'll cuss me out and threaten to take my son away from me. He always tries to make me look like the bad guy. I'm not aloud to take pictures of myself. If I were to send a picture of myself to him, he will accuse me of having hickeys on my body. Everytime we hang out he puts his hands down my pants to make sure I have pubes, and if I shaved them that means I'm having sex with someone and he'll once again threaten to take my son away from me. I get called bitch everyday by him. He runs me down. I've tried to get away from him but he always reels me back in. I'm pathetic, I know. This relationship is toxic, I know. This boyfriend of mine is manipulative and controlling, I know. I just need someone to set this shit straight for me! I can't deal with it anymore! I don't know what I'm doing! I'm so confused and young. I want to get away from him, I really do. im making a lot of excuses to stay with him and I just need a big slap in the face and bring me back to realization. My momma never raised me to be with a man like this. He is cruel to me and my son. I guess I just want to hear someone else's story of a relationship they had like this and were able to get out. I'm 18 and my son is now 9 months old. Suggestions? Comparisons? Anything? Just give me reassurance please.