Tuesday, September 6, 2016 3:59 AM by Guest
My boyfriend and I have been dating for 2 years (we're early twenties) and he's the only person I've ever had sex with. For the past few months I've been concerned about not having experienced being with other people and it's led me to feeling like I've fallen out of love with him since it's always on my mind, although I still love him dearly and cherish his presence in my life.
I confessed this to a friend who I used to think had feelings for me while we were at his flat drinking. At first he was supportive and talking with him made me realize I need to break up with my boyfriend at least temporarily to be able to explore myself, but he also was slowly trying to coerce me into having sex with him. I felt too vulnerable to leave and eventually he broke me down and I let him start to touch me for a minute before he stopped and everything sunk in and I burst out crying and got out of there
I know I have to break up with my boyfriend now, and I need to tell him what I've done. I don't deserve him. I need to take full responsibility for my actions. I told my friend we can't be in each other's lives, and he's mad now. I'm worried he'll tell my boyfriend before I can.