Im 36, Hubby is 47, Im his second wife, he's my first marriage, I met him in during a troubled time in my life yet we have lasted a 8 years, he has 3 kids with his ex which make it hard for him to save any money plus he spends a lot of his time there, Im ok with it, I understand.

I was in love for a long time with another man, he was very controlling, possesive and even intimidating, I learned to allow it, humor it and eventually love it, I have always been very submissive, its in my nature. Our relationship eventually became Toxic so I walked away, met my hubby while he was divorcing and he seemed such a nice guy, harmless so I fell for him.

Couple of weekends back, I went out with co-workers who make fun of me because Im the bread winner in my house, something I dont mind one bit. Romina my assistant was getting married last weekend in April so 6 of us girls went out for drinks and decided to check out a male strip club, we didnt enjoy it mostly because we are not those type of girls, this handsome haitian door man told us about a bar across the street that played reggae plus you could dance. The night went on and we got drunk, I have to admit that it bothered me that we were the old girls there, everyone was in their 20's To my surprise the doorman showee up and kept on looking at me, I walked to the bar to get another round of malibu and pineapple, he approached me and just grabbed my arm and told me to go with him, I was shocked but found myself obligued to obey, he took me to the outside part of the bar walked to the parking lot and behind this big van he started kissing me and undressing me, I told him I was married but he said that I was gonna enjoy it, that he was gonna give me something my hubby cant, we made love in that parking lot, it felt good, bypassers filmed us with their phones I know it was wrong but felt good, I gave him my number, still see him from time to time, he always needs money, he has 2 girls pregnant so I see why, I will end it but not for now