Me and my boyfriend have been on and off for 2 years now and every time we had a little fight or broke up we always came back stronger. About a month ago I experienced the pain of cheating on my boyfriend,his friends messaged me telling me to kill myself, I had no one to turn to but my boyfriend I told him the complete truth and proved to him it had only happened because I was under the influence of alcohol. Yesterday I was with my boyfriend and we have been doing so well I have never been more in love with him in my life, I was talking to him about the future and I kept making comments about how much I loved him in fact I was so so happy. He took me for a walk before I left and grabbed my hand to tell me that another girl had kissed him. He blamed her for everything and of course I was being understandable as I was in his shoes early this year I loved this boy so much so I keep my feelings inside until I got home. I then messaged my "friend" he cheated with asking why she did it and she full on raged at me blaming him, saying he kept trying to and then he finally kissed her so she left the party. I was told his friends wanted it to happen and they encouraged it to happen and I just feel broken. My boyfriend saw how much pain I went through  when I kissed another guy for no longer than a secound but yet he still put my through his pain. I can't help but ask myself if he loved me that much he would have never wanted me to go through any of the pain he claimed to have had when I first kissed another guy.