Me and my boyfriend have been dating for 8 months. We started dating right before I moved to another state for college, and we are still very much in love. We see each other one a month if we're lucky, and I am constantly missing him. The thing is that I cheated on him last night. Me and a couple of my friends went out drinking last night and I got pretty drunk. I am pretty close to this international student, and he'll be going back to his home country after exams are done. So anyways, we all came back home and I went to my dorm to get ready for bed. Me and that guy ended up talking and the guy was pretty drunk. I don't remember what happened but next thing I remember was that he was on top of me. We did it. Next morning I feel so ashamed of myself and so guilty because of what I did. I won't ever tell my boyfriend what I did, because he doesn't deserve to know that I committed infidelity. Even though I cheated on my loving and loyal boyfriend, it honestly makes me feel like I would never do this again, and that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I already accept my guilt and that's my punishment.