Saturday, June 20, 2015 8:08 AM by Dawn
My husband of 20 years has left me and our 2 kids for another woman. I can't describe the sadness and shock. He loves her he says, our last 5 years I didn' love him so he is leaving. He was unhappy but never told me, says I should have known. We were planning a vacaton, just joined Costco, raising our kids. All the while he was having a facebook texting love affair and planning to leave us. My son cries every night, they had a fight he tells me they are done, she calls me at work which feels acttaully firghtening to me, wants me to call her back, I don't. She says hurtful thinks in her messages. The next day they are back on and again he never had feelings fo me and moved out. I have never seen my son so sad. My body actually hurts with the sadness. He seems to have no feelings for me and somehow has managed to turn off the recogition of how sad and devastaed ou kids are. I am a wreck , why am I so upset when someone has made it clear with every cruel way he could that he has no use for me anymore, and no feelings. That I am the reason he has left that my memories are wrong and we were never happy. How does a wife compete, our conversations are about homework, laundry and making dinner, who pays what bill who drives which child to what. L the girlfreind is also a Mom which makes this all the more heartwrecnhing, she has her chld every other week so they have conversatons about relationships and fun. I miss the old person he was, I miss his kindness. He is so cold and cruel now. Tellilng me one day after they have a fight they are over and he is wishing he didn't have his lease on the new condo, last week he initiates sex with me and again I have hope, but the next day it's like it never happeend. Tellilng me over and over how he loves her and doesn't love me.
I want to wake up and not have the sadness invade.