I've been with my husband since I was 19. Although I always knew my preference was females over males. My only reason for dating guys was to please my very religious family who are so against same sex relations. I had my first son at 21 but by this point I was going through insanely sexual frustration because I knew I wanted to feel a woman make love to me and not my husband. One nite I got shit face drunk with a friend who I considered family since we were kin by marriage. By the end of the nite I told her how I needed to find me a woman so I can finally know if that's what I want. So then she stops her car and looks at me with these pearl drunk eyes and says let me be that woman you need from. I looked at her like she was crazy and told her no bitch I can't fuck you!! Your like my cousin and that would be just nasty.... She was pissed and drove off like an idiot... When I got home that nite I was in shocked that my bbf wanted me to do her and I told my husband but all he did was lol. Which pissed me off so I told him crying that I could not take it anymore and that I wanted to be with a woman and not with him. Then he told me look before you just leave me not knowing if it's what you really want I give you permission to be with women when you want and if you feel the same way once you've experienced a woman I will be more then willing to go my way and you go yours without any doubt. 2bc+pt2 my next chapter in life it was like an opened door to a whole new world!!