Hello!

My name is Carson.I'd like to narrate something that's made me lost all hope and belief in love.2 months ago,my wife cheated on me with a younger man.She had sex with him in our own apartment like a slut.I forgave her but I don't think I'll ever be able to get over the details so I think that I should end this marriage.

Me and my wife are both 42.We've been married for 18 years,together since High School.Our relationship was solely based on love.She had many boyfriends before me in High School as she was one of the prettiest and  popular girls in our class.When we were 15-16 she only dated the so called "cool boys" or football players or the best looking guys in school but when me and her got together she told me that she'd never felt happier and that she could picture us as a family some day.Our relationship grew over the years and we both changed tremendously(or so I thought).She changed her image.She wasn't that chick from

High school that only dated handsome boys and only cared about makeup and expensive jewelry.She became a great mother to our daughter that we had in 2008.She became responsible and more caring than ever.Things have always been great in our relationship.She turned out to be the romantic type just like me(or so I thought) because she enjoyed our nights out,our walks in the moonlight,our romantic dinners at restaurants and to be honest,after so many years of marriage,I never once neglected any of that.The one thing that I neglected though was sex because when we had our daughter I had to work 2 jobs in order to support our family and she wasn't allowed to work because she was obliged to take care of our child.Things got to be too much financially so I had to work all day literally all day so when I got home in the evenings I was in no mood for sex let alone that I was always exhausted.

My wife's always been a very sexual person.Even in high school,as rude as this will sound,a lot of guys bragged about sleeping with her.In the beginning of our marriage(pretty much like in most if not all marriages)we had lots of sex and it was amazing.I even remember having it almost every day during our honeymoon.After we had our daughter we stopped having sex that often and eventually we ended up having it once a month,not every month,for that matter.My wife was disappointed in me.At first she was trying to conceal her disappointment but in time she started complaining.We had many arguments about it.I told her that somebody had to pay the bills etc. Obviously,I knew she wasn't happy but despite all we loved each other(or so I thought).Ultimately,she stopped asking for sex at all so I thought that she'd finally come to terms with our situation but I also got suspicious a little bit so one day while she was showering i powered on her laptop and decided to look through her pictures,browser history and so on.What I saw was shocking to me.She had She had naked pictures of her-some not so naked,others-fully naked.I proceeded to check up on her browser history.When I came across Ashley Maddison link I knew she was cheating on me.I opened one of the links and thankfully she'd set her browser to remember passwords so I successfully logged in.She had unanswered messages in her inbox from this man.I found out they were exchanging pictures and dirty texts.I was so shocked,I couldn't believe this was happening to me,to us.I got so jealous.Since she got out of the shower I didn't have much time reading her messages so I decided not to confront her right away but to see how far she'd go.I took off for work that morning but I didn't go to work.I spent the most of the day in this cafe near my work.I pondered the situation through and through and at that point I couldn't really think rationally so since I had no one to turn to I googled something along the lines of:signs your wife is cheating.After browsing the Internet for awhile hoping to dig up some useful information I came across this website: cheatersspyshop.com where I didn't even hesitate to buy a camera and a voice recorder.The camera that I bought was really special because it was a lightbulb camera of some kind.I waited for a few days and before I set up the camera I decided to follow my wife around every time she stepped out of the apartment.She was seeing this man in real life.They were going out on dates and I saw

them with my very eyes.He gave her flowers every time they met.They mostly went for drinks etc. and yes,they were making out.At that point I was still hoping for that to turn out to be a short-term thing or something insignificant but when I told my wife I would be away for the weekend because my brother was getting married(I lied to her about it) she seemed happy and excited.On Saturday morning before I left,she was still sleeping so I decided to look through her Ashley Maddison account again.What I saw was what I thought would happen.She invited this man over saying I quote:"My husband will be away for the whole weekend and I can send the kid to her grandparents' chalking it up to me being sick and not wanting her to catch it.Do you wanna come over so we can finally....?" His answer was: "Can't wait,baby!" Then they arranged the time.Before I left I quickly installed the camera which wasn't hard to do at all.I tested it in my car.It was working,I could see the bedroom very well.I set up the voice recorder in the kitchen.Then I drove somewhere far from the area.At that moment all I had to do was wait.At around 2:30 pm I heard my daughter's voice and her mother saying:Mommy is sick,you have school on Monday,dear. or something along these lines as she was explaining to her why she was being sent to her grandparents'.A bit later I saw my wife putting on the same lingerie she puts on when we have sex.At around 3:50pm the other man was there and I saw them kissing and getting undressed.They had sex in the bedroom and I watched it all.I swear I was on the verge of a mental breakdown.What happened afterwards finished me off.She looked at him and said I quote: "I wanna suck your cock!"The man stood up on the bed and my wife indeed gave him a blowjob.As she was doing it she was talking dirty to him and even said that she hadn't done that since high school.The man said I quote:"It was so good.We should do it again,I'm starting to get jealous of your husband,baby" to which she responded:"Don't be,he never wants to have sex any more".I remember their conversation so well,it's been stuck in my head ever since.Then he said:"Why?Is he gonna croak?" And started laughing and so did my wife which was surprising to me.She said:"You're the only one I've sucked off since high school".He replied:"Why don't you blow your hubby,is he gonna croak from a blowjob?" Then my wife said:"Yeah he's old,so he probably is" and started giggling and added:"You're so bad,I love it!" as she kept blowing him.I felt angry at that time and felt like driving back home and killing both of them but that conversation pales in comparison to what I saw and I didn't even see it well because I could only see my wife's backside.He came in her mouth and she didn't hesitate to swallow it.They both laid down afterwards and started commenting their "best moments" so to speak.When it was time for him to go he she asked him if she could kiss him.He said: "No,save that one for your husband!" Then they both started laughing but he did kiss her.On Monday,I confronted my wife about it.Thankfully,she didn't deny a thing and said that she wanted to divorce me anyway because she didn't feel happy any more.I can't even believe what I did afterwards,I begged her not to leave me when she should've been in this position.

2 months later(now) I feel quite better and I feel like I should divorce her.I'd like to take custody of our child but I'm not sure whether or not I have the advantage here.I mean,she cheated but she's her mother.I feel much better having typed this and sharing it with you.I hope that my story taught you something.