Tuesday, January 12, 2016 11:48 AM by Guest
I was with my husband 1 year when I cheated. I met a guy from my work and we clicked in a number of ways. We had fun together and intimacy was great. My husband wasn't fulfilling me in the bedroom, he no longer made me feel special. He put his friends first instead of me and was drinking a lot. This new guy gave me everything I was craving in a relationship. Real feelings started to begin, I started to love him and was seeing a future. My husband and I were scheduled to move across the country a bit before this affair began. So I was currently cheating while packing up our things. We moved away, as I had no choice. Never knowing when or if I would see this guy again. I was sad, depressed, I missed him. I kept contact and texted and called often. My husband found out I was texting him by looking through my phone, but knows nothing of our real relationship. He was hurt, but I can't say I felt guilty. My 'boyfriend' and I eventually realized it just wasn't going to work with this kind of relationship. We stopped communication completely, he understood but we were both heartbroken. My husband and I's relationship has more of a friendship vibe. I love him, but the intimacy is not there. That's the biggest thing I am missing in my relationship. To everyone else, we seem so happy but the truth is I'm missing the man I had an affair with everyday.
I visited recently (2 years later) to see my old friends and had no intention seeing him. I didn't want to put him or myself through that. I couldn't take it and decided to text him. We met for some drinks. We clicked. It was like no time passed at all. We were leaving the bar and ended up kissing. It was like fireworks went off. I was so happy again. We made love that night and it was amazing. Then I had to leave and the heartbreak began again. I'm so confused as to what to do. Is this the guy that is my true love? These feelings can't last this long for no reason. At this point I'm really considering breaking things off with my husband and trying with him.