Sunday, August 28, 2016 6:47 AM by Guest
my and my boyfriend have been dating for about 1 year now. this summer we fell apart, as he got consumed into his work.he became rude, mean, and distant from me. it felt like he didn't care and he even would goes days without talking to me. I know i should have spoken up about how i felt but i wanted to wait until the summer was over to meet him in person and try to fix our problems. 3 weeks before i see him comes around, i was going to celebrate my birthday with a couple girlfriends. and again, he called me angry, and rude and ignored me for the entire trip. On the last night of our trip we went out to a club, it was boring, we were sober and the drinks we ridiculously priced. These group of guys approached us and offered to buy us shots. As my girlfriends danced with guys, i stayed at the bar and started having a normal conversation with the guy buying me these drinks. Soon we were 4 shots in, and he asked me to dance. I did. He kissed me and i kissed back. Then suddenly i'm being pulled out of the club, placed in a cab and then into a bedroom. I don't remember much else. I do remember some sex but not the whole thing. I was so tired i just wanted to sleep. Then I screamed out that i don't want this, i want to go home. So he stopped looked at me and said "whats wrong ?" i replied " i don't want this i dont want this please let me go home". He seemed shocked. I don't remember much again. I remember getting my purse, him walking me outside and bawling at what had just happened. As i go outside i didn't know where i was, this was so far away from the club we had been at. I was scared again and felt numb. I told him that i had a boyfriend and i just wanted to go home. He kept trying to convince me to come back inside with him. And i kept refusing repeating that i need to go home. I broke up with my boyfriend the next day bc of guilt. but when we saw eachother in 2 weeks everything felt so right with him. I tried to keep what happened a secret for about a week. but i couldn't anymore. the guilt and pain was too much. I told him and I don't know if he'll ever forgive me.