Wednesday, June 1, 2016 9:17 AM by Ys79
It will be 10 years this summer of my marriage, I wont say they been perfect but pretty close, I was a stay home mom for 8 years, Financially we had some rough patches but we always pulled through, 2 beautiful boys who are both in elementary now which has allowed me to get back out there and got a job in a resort, the schedule is not great but the pay is decent, enough for hubby to work a bit less and dpend some time with the kids.
I instantly befriended a co-worker, Ill call her Brie, we are about the same age (35) but she just finished a divorce, her life is a lot more active thsn mines, now I love my husband with all my heart, faults and everything, my kids are my life and my home are the most important things to me, yet I have to admit as if I feel I got old very fast, I dress older and I have no idea about cool spots to have a drink, Brie helped me out with that, she is like more connected to the world.
My husband encouraged me to make friends and enjoy a drink or 2 once a week, I hate to sound self involved but it felt nice to dress up and sit at a bar, notice that some guys stared a bit, Im not an attractive woman to say but I was at one point and it felt good to turn some heads.
2 weeks ago we had more drinks than we should have and Brie started talking to a man who was there with his friend, I participated in the conversation to help out Brie find a guy, well, alcohol and the ilussion of being found attractive led me to making love to one of his friends, now the guilt is killing me and I stopped talking to Brie because I feel shes a bad influence, I will admit the sex was great and erotic but the guilt kicked in right after and now im full of regrets and just want my husband and never leave his side. We have a beautiful family and I wont risk it for anything so I cant come clean with him because it meant nothing. What do you all think?