Thursday, October 22, 2015 8:17 PM by Guest
I honestly can't believe that I am writing here but I have no one to really get it out of my system to without judging me, well actually I have no real close girlfriends period.
So I am an entertainer, quite famous in the country I have been living in for the past 7+ years, I have been with my husband since I was 19, I only had 1 serious relationship before this but he passed away and he was also from this said country, technically I have never been with a guy from my own country. At the beginning of our relationship he cheated on me with his ex girlfriend, it was just a one night thing but it affected me hugely... I get guys throwing themselves at me, apparently I am beautiful but I have self-confidence issues so its always hard for me to believe, adding that into being an entertainer in the nightlife industry I am in a different city every weekend and not once have I ever cheated on my husband, depsite him being quite abusive to me and not making me feel special, I have never had thoughts of cheating on him before but earlier this year I performed at a huge sporting event (I wont say what type of sport as people could add 2 and 2 together is they can accross this post) Anyway the 2 athelets and a brother were apparently smitten with me based on others opinions while I was there and yes I did notice but didnt quite believe they would be intersted in me. After that I got chatting with one of them online, he has a girlfriend in his country and he knows I am married but we have a alot in common and over the past 8 months we have been sending eachother playful snaps, nothing raunchy but definitly a little flirtagious... Anyway he is in town for a sporting event in the neighbouring country and he has invited me there, people would kill to be in my shoes so after turning it down a few times and then realizing that I booked my flight and I am leaving tomorrow... Anyway It could have still been passed of as just friends but this is really a huge sporting event and he said all the hotels in the area are full so I would have to sleep in his room with him.... Hmmm he has a girlfriend, he knows I am married... I have never had an adult sleep over but he is hot, so I am I (apparently) something is bound to happen right? Don't get me wrong I feel bad that I could possibly let something happen but recently me and the hubby have been having a major rough patch, I am not feeling very loved, we are total opposites and it is catching up in our marriage and I also have his original cheating incident in my mind. Since I have never been with a guy from outside of this country I am also curious and possibly looking for revenge and I think he is into me because he knows I am not one of them crazy kiss n tell girls because he knows I also would not want to be found out. It is exciting yet scary. I don't know how long my marriage will last anyway, no matter how much I want it to. I need some attention...