Sunday, August 28, 2016 7:09 AM by GuestThe hug lasted lo
I have been marrried for over 17 years. But me and my husband R met in the church many years before we started dating. I am a God fearing woman and have made a life in the church with my husband and family. I have never cheated on my husband and when I have had thoughts, put them out of my mind by thinking of what the Lord would have me do. I say all this to make it known that I have been a good wife, mother and soldier for the Lord. But I am so so so so so ashamed at what I have done and what I continue to do now. I am writing this to hopefuly bring me back to reality and let me tell the world of the reckage I am causing and the hurt I may give to my loving devoted husband. He is a good man who deserves so much better than what I have laid at his feet now. I commited the sin of adulttry with a man in my church. I did not go out of my way to commit adultry , I did not seek this man out nor I beleive he sought me out. We were placed on a committee for our church. My husband developed type 2 diabeties a few years ago, and the medication he uses has affected his sexual drive and energy. We had a wonderful full sex life , he completly satisfied me in every way until he began taking the medication. But I never waivered or sought out another man, I have been devoted to myy husband. The end of my devotion began quite innocent, The man on the committee with me lost his baby sister to a drunken driver, He was distruaght so I would try to cheer him up and be supportive during this time. One evening after our meeting we satyed around to go over some programs for an upcoming event, as we were leaving, he gave me a hug as usual. But this time it was diffeent , when he hugged me, all of the neglect as well as his smell, the tight hug, I had a twitch in my lower region. The hug lasted longer and longer, I felt him move his face down to mine and we kissed. We kissed soft at first then more passionatly. I felt the hardness of him on my stomach and knew I wanted him. I wanted this man with all of me. We ended up having sex in the church that evening and have continued since that night. I and he have tried to stop, but we end up texting each other and we find a place to be together. I am so ashamed at my behavior and the damage my lust has caused. I need to stop this but I cannot . I have tried and tried and tried but this man makes me feel so alive. my mind explodes when we make love, I am totally his. I love my husband, but I have also developed strong strong feelings for this man. He has not waivered and is ashamed as well. He is in the process of getting a transfer to another state. But one part of me wants him to go far away and the other part says go with him.