Wednesday, March 30, 2016 10:50 AM by Guest
My bf was passing trhoguh some rough times he was doing poor in college and work and so i was all the time working hard so he would be ok happy and help him. He has always loved me a lot, and is really loving but because of his problems he would stop doing things for me i was always the one who did for him. but he loves me a lot and wishes to marry me and spend his life with me. We had a lot of comunication and trust.
I when on a 20 day trip and i met this boy. I didint want to cheat at first but our conection was really strong and i cheated 2 days he really likes, and i him. He is really someonthing i would want so at first i though i was going to leave my bf for him but i thoguh about it strongly. my cheater has an intermitenet gf who he wishes to leave for me, he tells me he wants to be with me and would reaaly want a relationship with me because he says he has never felt nothgin like the feelings he has with me and would take flights every week to go visit me if we atrted a relationship. I really like him too
We just cut all comunication because we agrreed that i would stay with my boyfriend for now because of two reason i told him: 1. i want to give my total all to my bf because he deserves it and i was doing it right, also i dont plan on telling him because it would break his heart completely and it would tear mine to hurt him so badly, i learned my lesson and will not disrespect the relationship ever again nor cheat nor want something more while i am with him. and 2. because i really love him and want him to be happy we have a good realtionship and i dont think it should go to waste just because i looked for something better and let myself believe i was capable of leaving him just like that, i learned that i can not break his heart like that.
althoguh my cheater is really something better i choose to stay with my bf. he understood and so now we cut comunication. just for like errands we will talk nothing emotional. my cheater told me that maybe in the future if my bf and i dont work and he is still free we would try it.
so i am unsure because now that i close all doors with my cheater my bf feel bad, he feels the distance, he feels that he doesnt make me as happy as before, that he doesnt exite or impress me so much , which is totally true. He feels sad, althoguh i tell him i am happy with him that i love him. He just told me he dreamed last night that we were together on a camp and i felt in love with his friend mike and that mike was telling me "i am in love with you" and i would say " i am in love with you too but i cant because of my situation". I dont know what to do!? my bf told me for one moment he felt i was with him until i found something better and i told him no that i want to be with him and i love him.
i accept coments, opions, thoughs and ofcourse advice!