Saturday, July 16, 2016 10:03 AM by Moni
Me and J have been married for 17 years. We have had a rocky relationship since day 1 but we always made it past the rough spots but lately things are starting to change. He stays at work aftet he clocks out to drink with his friends and when i mentioned it wad becoming a problem we argued. We argue about bills, his drinking, my being distant and our sex life. It has drastically changed o er the years.. Almost to the point that i feel like i am begging for intamacy. Last year i looked through his phone and found him texting hookers. I confronted him but he said it was just a joke and he would never act upon it, i dont believe him. I have distanced myself from him. I have become numb so it was strange to me when someone else came along and made me feel again. We will call him B.. I work with B, and we started just talking at work one day and it went from there. I developed a school girl crush on him. He would tell me everything i wanted to hear and i ended up sleeping with him. He has a girlfriend and kids wigh her and i know he is not going to leave her for me but i was crushed when a couple of days after we had sex he told me he feels awful that he cheated. Its so akward now at work because of it. I see him daily, i try not to let it bother me but i feel used. Maybe thats what i get for cheating on J.
I decided to tell J that i wasnt happy. I can never tell him about B but i did tell him how i feel more line his friend than wife. We are going to tey to make it work but its hard for me. I am mot going to let J run my life anymore and i am going to let him know when things upset me. I just wish i had B on the side still 😉