Friday, April 22, 2016 8:47 AM by Guest
So I've been in this relationship for over two years going on three in September. It's been kind of I don't know, I feel like this was a forced relationship. I fell pregnant 8 months after we started dating then engaged a week later.. Honestly I didn't want any of that. I'm 22 years old. I love my son though! I couldn't ask for a better child than my little guy. Anyway! So about a month ago I met this guy at the bar... He was new in town for sure! He's tall, handsome, chiseled and light skinned. It didn't even cross my mind that he would even be a little interested in me, because well he was just so hot! But I ignored him because he did look my way a few times.. End of the night came, everyone is outside the bar and he just happen to be standing next to me and introduced himself. He ended up tagging along with me and my two other friends.. We got to know each other a bit more, and also found out that he worked with my fiancée, anyway, I've always remained faithful to my fiancée, when he leaned in for a kiss I had to turn him away even though he was the hottest guy I've ever laid my eyes on. The night ended we walked half way home together.. I went home and he went home.. So about two weeks ago I met up with him again, we were both very drunk (not an excuse) and I was the one that ended up hitting on him. We were outside the bar alone and ended up taking off to his place, we had sex for about 3 hours before I finally went home. And let me tell you, it was the best sex I've had ever. His hands all over me, it was so hot and heavy. While as my fiancée, I would get lucky if he wanted to hold my hand, hence why I said I feel like we're forcing it. I hate to say it but I have been thinking about leaving him, but how? Idk. Anyway .. So I texted him the next day we both said how amazing it was.. And that we probably won't do it again.. And I was totally okay with that. But then we as we texted , I don't think we wanted love, I think it's more of a lust thing. Because I went to his place again... This time we were both sober and it was just as great and crazy as the first time.. We decided that was the last time because his girlfriend will be coming to town tomorrow.. I feel like someone is going to find out soon, so I've been mentally preparing myself for all the harsh words, all the rumours, the breakup.. I'm ready .. It's not like I can't take care of myself.. And it's not like I've never been alone before... I'd rather be alone. I'd rather take care of myself. Because my fiancée is a slob, lives off pop and junk food.. Never wants to go out for walks! He just wants to sit on the couch and do nothing. And I'm tired of living like this.. I want a fulfilling life, I don't want my son to think it's okay to sit on the couch and watch tv all day. We have sex maybe 2 times a month. I stopped trying because of how much rejection I've gotten in the past. We just are not on the same level of life together, it could be because he's older.. Not much, idk maybe he's just lazy. He also smokes pot, like I have no problem with pot because I smoke it too.. But he smokes it to the point every single day until he can't keep his eyes open..if I want to go out he bitches and moans because he has to take care of our son, even after work. I cook him lunch and supper, I do his laundry I do the dishes, I take out the garbage I clean up the garbage if an animal gets into it, I give up the "nagging" . I stopped asking him to do anything. I do everything a woman should do for her man, But he cannot even the slightest make me feel like a woman.