I am 17 and I have been dating my current boyfriend for about 8 months now. We have a lil complicated story we met 2 years ago but he had a girlfriend back than so we remained just friends. His girlfriend dumbed him but we did not get the chance to be together because he got himself another one. Finally this winter we got together and it was perfect for a little bit when the first fight got in the way. He has his own way of loving a little possesive. Like he gets very sad and angry when I tell him i want to hang put with friends or if I mention a party. I love him with all my heart and I decided to put some more effort in our relationship and i stopped going to summer camps hang out less and avoid school trips but sometimes it feels like he did not even notice. Anyway this summer I went with my cousin in Germany for 3 days to attend a wedding. I was not supposed to be a guest at the wedding so i was feeling a little uncomfortable when a handsome blond guy came and introduced himself to me and than introduced me to other guests so I wasn't feeling alone. Troughout the night we talked a lot and there were times when our hands touched and than we stared holding hands and dancing. He was a friend of my cousin and he was 30 years old. The next day we had dinner with him and his parents and than he wanted to sjow us his new appartment so we went inside for a quick tour. My cousin went outside for some monts so we were alone in his apartment and than ge gently grabbed me and we hugged. In that moment i knew that if i raise my head and look him in the eyes he would kiss me . I knew it was wrong but i did...I raised my head and we kissed. I felt bad and guilty and dirty the moment the kiss ended but iy was already done...I had cheated on my boyfriend with a man 13 years older than me and i liked it.