Monday, June 13, 2016 3:36 PM by Lyla
Rating: +4|-2
was with a relationship for 2 years. A few months ago i found out he had been two- timing me with his ex (i was apparently the side chick). I broke up. He pursued her like a crazed stalker for a month but she left him for good. Then he came for me. Being the emotional fool that i am i took him back. We were okay for a few days - then i find out he had been contacting her again.It shattered me. I left him again and again he chose to pursue her. After a while when it became clear she wasn't coming back, he came for me again and AGAIN i took him back. But this time i had huge doubts and grudges against him. I started fighting daily. I also found out he still had her nude pics on his phone. When confronted he said he "didnt know about them".
He makes me feel like I'm the one who provokes him into contacting her. He always blames my temper for it. I end up feeling terribly depressed. I end up crying everyday
I feel so worthless. He was engaged to her, used to buy her gifts constantly, write her long love letters - he does nothing like that for me. He treats me like someone he wants to string along.
Im in mixed emotions over this. One part of me wants to forgive him and better myself, the other part wants to dump him. He is also trying vehemently to move to another country for work, but keeps on telling me that he won't go. His words and actions often don't match. He hits and punches me sometimes but I feel like I provoke him to do that. Some days he acts really loving and the other days he says I make his life hell (this is because I complain when he doesn't call me or talk to me lovingly).
Can someone PLEASE tell me what to do? I feel like I will go mad due to my insecurity and fickleness of mind. Help!