hi everyone thanks for taking out time to read this.. So me and my boyfriend have been together for more than a year now& i caught him cheating on me. I thought everything was going fine he was very good at hiding his true intentions and the way he really felt. I'm still so upset and angry and i have noone to talk to about it. I don't have any close friends or someone who i can trust I only have him which hurts even more now.. Anyway i just guessed his instagram password and got onto his account in his DMs. My heart literally broke in two I couldn't breathe propely I couldn't believe my eyes.. He was talking to anumber of girls but his Ex's chat was at the top of the list. I read through the conversation the way he was speaking to her telling her how much he missed her and how he was dying to hear her voice. He told her he still loves her and he wants to see her, she doesn't live in the same town as us so she didn't know about me and him he only ever spoke about me to her as a close friend. To top things off hes said the same things to the both of us sending us the same love quotes and posts about being loyal and feeling loved. I don't know what I've done to deserve any of this, yeah weve been through alot together but i really thought we were madly inlove with eachother.. I guess i only felt that way. The biggest bombshell is she's getting married in a few weeks time, after seeing all of it i did what anyone would do i told him to leave me alone and he couldn't have hurt me anymore than he has. Its Like he didn't even care i guess love is full of shit. I'm scared thou to be alone to have noone because he was my everything i did everything for him i always told him and showed him how much I loved him i still do love him and a part of me just can't seem to let go of him. 

I just need someone to tell me what to do how do i move on from this. I'm going to be starting university soon and he won't be going to the same one as me so maybe this is the time for a fresh start. 

Thankyou for reading