I think you say you are hopelessly in love with your fiance because he is everything you are not; honorable, loyal, faithful, and decent.  These qualities don't rub of by being in close proximity to them girlie.  Getting married would be the biggest mistake you could make, and the WORST thing you could do to him.  End your relationship and go your separate ways.  Don't try contacting him again.  He'll find someone he should truly be with someday.

so what does your fiancé do? Is he happy with his life as this could be affecting his sex drive maybe try going out with the fiancé getting drunk and a hotel in a next city. Does he have a porn addiction that you don't know about. Maybe the guy is stressed over something else this can impede the sex drive too. Maybe it's your approach try oral only sessions, go for a late movie end your date with car sex, go for late drive and find a spot car sex or on the car with the breeze on your butt! Lol constantly cheating is not going to change the situation just make it worst for you and a heartache for him WHEN he finds out 

updates dude

you don't know what love is, love requires sacrifice and honor, these are qualtieis your self centered self do not possess.

Wow your a piece of shit. When your in a relationship with someone, cheating should absolutely NEVER be the option. Be a human being and just break up with him. You don't even need to give him a reason. But what your doing now, fucking your coworker is just plain wrong. Your a dirty fucking whore. That guy your fucking, I guarantee you, has ZERO respect for you. He knows your a floozy and people like him usually are as dirty as can be. Go wash your twat with some bleach and go break up with your FIANCÉ!! If you were my girl I would straight up beat the shit out of you. Maybe you Fiance chooses not to fuck you because your a hideous troll? Ever think of that? I can put money on the fact that your probably one of those chick's whose beyond ugly. The only guy willing to give you some dick is some dirty ass co worker who probably fucks everything the walks. Your poor fiance. Your such a low lifw. You deserve to get run over by a city bus. Better yet go jump infront of a train. I would beat the fuck out of you and probably kill you if I found out u were cheating on me. The most disrespectful thing you can do to ANY body. Fucking dirty whore. *UGLY DIRTY WHORE

To the recent poster above, get a divorce if you're unhappy with your sex life. Sure 8 years is a long time, but cheating is wrong. Your husband deserves better than you. 

Wow some of y'all need to just stay single and fuck all y'all want instead of cheating. Y'all think it's okay for y'all to do it but when yo man do it it's oh he such a fuckin cheating bastard or he a no good piece of shit. And a poster above talking bout don't listen to us I go to hook up sites and this and that. Bitch that's not okay meeting random ass ppl and fucking them. But hey when you catch an STD you can't get rid of its all his fault right lol. Hope yo daughter not as Slutty as you. 

You were either drunk when you wrote this or you are crazy. Just drop that poor guy and stop screwing with him. Go and be free to fuck men, but let him go and stop breaking his heart over and over. Break it once then fuck lotta men. 

It could be like someone else said some sort of secret porn addiction that he's not telling you about and he feels embarrassed / ashamed to talk about it. In fact I would bet a lot of money that it is that. When you want sex, he's already had an orgasm (or a few) looking at porn. Maybe try to bring up porn one day but not in an accusative manner, but rather in a sexy way (ask if he wants to watch some with you). You know, it could be something as silly as him being into something that he's embarrassed to tell you about, something he'd love to do with you but cannot bring himself to talk about. The funny thing is, usually the thing is super embarrassing for the person but for the partner it's kind of silly and a case of "why didn't you just tell me??". Personally, the best thing I did when my girlfriend and I did at the very start of our relationship was talk openly about sex and porn. I told her the kind of stuff I look at, and she showed me the stuff she likes to read (she prefers to read hentai manga sex stories). Anyway, it's all better out in the open.

Don't worry about. Just let him know your screwing others. As you said he is a weak man and for that alone you can, as you are, do as you please with other men. He deserves what ever he gets and you should not feel guilty. If you did feel any guilt you would not have done it again and again with other men. 

Your very first paragrph gives you away. You say he forgave you because he is weak. Yet, many would think he forgave you because he's in love with you, extremely patient and understanding, and is a person who is able to forgibe and move on. Yet, when you categorize these things as 'weak', you're really saying, "I do not respect him because I can manipulate him and get away with it". And that, my dear, puts you in the category of people who are predators. You see others are acquisitions who are there to fill in your needs. You say you love him to pieces, but I doubt you can differentiate between enjoying him as a trophy husband, and respecting him as a person. You may have a personality disorder. Look into it, see if you can learn to grow some empathy if you really love you husband, and if not, pehaps set him free of this trap you placed him in, where he may actually be living his life thinking you respect him for being a great guy.

I have a perfect solution for you - your husband sounds like he wants you to cuckold him. So, why don't you try asking him if he would mind if you got a little sex on the side, with the promise that you won't bring home any diseases or babies?  My guess he'll get an enormous erection and may get mad at you, but then he'll flip you over and rage-fuck you like you've never been fucked - he'll pull your hair, call you a slut, a pig, a whore - it'll be the hottest sex you two have ever had. And I bet $10 that after a couple of days, he'll come to YOU and tell you "I decided that it's okay if you occasionally fuck someone else..." and he'll give you a bunch of rules (no kissing, no black guys, no threesomes with two guys - all of which you'll later break), and you'll be on your way. Before you know it he will be asking you to tell him ALL the details about your little trysts. Then, he'll want to take you out to a bar and watch you get picked up by another guy adn take him to your car to fuck you in the back seat, all while your husband watches. Pretty soon he'll be begging you to let a huge black guy do you raw-dog and let him knock you up.  I know how these things work and your husband has all the markings of a cuckold. Your cheating will be the thing that SAVES your marriage!

You say you're "trapped". No, you are not. You Asked HIM to marry you. There is no chain holding you to him.

1 Tell him you cannot live with sex only occasionaly.

2 Tell him the kind of person you really are.

3 Tell him as you've told us that you think he is weak and that you don't respect him enough to stay faithful.

You are two different people and you should have explained this and broken up with him before being such a sleaze.

You dirty piece of shit you little fucking whore you don't deserve to be in a relationship or happy you betrayed a man who loves you an thinks the world of you your scum

You are portraying yourself as a victim when really you are not.  Stop lying to yourself and to your fiance.  You want a piece of cake as well as a an apple pie.  Well let me telll you a few thing.

1. you are plain bored with the relationship with your partner, in particular the sex.  It's ovbvious you want the emotional connections and the security he provides but you want the sex and no doubt you will cheat and cheat and cheat again and again, until your vagina is a loose a a hallway.  By then your fiance would no doubt find out, people talk and your lies will no longer be able to cover your deceptive ways.  It is really worth the risk to end it all with your "trapped undying love" for a piece of dick?

2.  You write your fiance is "weak" but let me say this, he found strength to forgive you (God knows why).  However  you are the weak one in the relationship because you cheated and have learnt ways to cover your tracks.  You are emotionally immature, selfish and totally untrustworthy.  Ask yourself this question "why cheat on him?"  what is the most unfundamental reason why?  and take a good look at yourself and call the wedding off  before you catch some disease and give him STD.

3.  What about the future? your children, your family, society, your work etc do you have any inkling what the consequences to your actions will be when you are eventually found out?  and when you die do you want your gravestone to be descecrated with the word "CHEATING FUCKING WHORE?"  Do you want your children to look at you with hate because you cheated on their father? 

Frankly, you need to leave your fiance alone, stop the wedding and be a single chick looking for FWB because the love of your life is not the fiance, the love of your life is sex.  Your fiance needs to move on with his life and find a woman who will be faithful to him and respect the marriage vows.