It all started when I had an accident I broke my back and my shoulder and a tendent in my neck I was in a lot of pain in was in and out off bed for 5years but one year into my accident she cheated and I was I. A bad way about it we had a son 2 half she went to stay in her mother she was gone about a month her parents made her come back and I took her back for my son now 6 years on we have a 5 year old girl and she left me again last time she went she was gambling to spent 4500 in about a month ever since she was always taking a lot off money she said she does not gamble but always on phone I asked was she with so one said no but I noticed condoms gone out off press asked about them she said never seen them I don't know what to I miss my chaps so much I have them 3half days at weekends I do ask her to come back for kids sake but she has hurt me so much and she blames me for it all going back on things that happened 10 years ago would I be better off with out her