Wednesday, September 14, 2016 9:27 PM by susan
Rating: +5|-4
it started by us being 2 years casual then finally admitting our love to each other by essentially only being eachothers , first thing i noticed was he had this hidden phone that he would never show around me ?? i found it a few times and managed to ring the voice mail and found message from girls at least 4 different numbers saying come sleep with me or pick me up !!! i though nothing of it and decided one day to put the numbers in my phone to find that one was always popping up to add on snapchat so one day i added her and asked her straight out how do you know __________ ? she said your the one asking so what are you getting at ? i then replied you havent asked my question she then said what he got to do with you i said he is my partner and father to my youngest child she then said kewl i then asked her so do you know him she then said yes .. and said she was seeing him for the last couple of months i then asked her if she was picking him up recently from my area as i noticed two times he said to me his mate was picking him up but never from our house he met them down the road she then admitted and said yes and told me she would stop what she is doing and will leave him i trusted her and thought she would stop everything which she didnt .. i waited another weekend and noticed he didnt come home till 6am and decided to snapchat5 her once again for her to not say if she saw him but screen shot our messages and threaten me to delete her or she will take matters further .. i told her im sorry and she advised she will bring up to him and said i will delte her from now on and have ive also turned of my facebook so she cant view or see whats happening .. he then went out another weekday and weekend which he didnt come home till 1pm in afternoon saying he way drunk at the same friends name that he has been using since ... i lost the plot at him and told him we need time havent had six for 4 months and he seems to think he doesnt need to which bare in mind he says hes not cheating so being the person i am i choose to beleive him ... he then told me he dont love me i then said i want to try work things but he still doesnt want to i then told him to go as i nmeed top sort myself out emotionally as i cant be with someone who dont love me ... hes been still staying with me but sleeping inb lounge the odd cuddles when i ask and im able to kiss him by and so on but still no sex or nice things from him so i think he is just trying to find a house .. he also hasnt been out the last 3 weeks as his wrist is in a skint which he damaged doing weights at gym .. so im thinking she must have left him im hoping if not he is waiting for it to heal im so confused as i love hjim soo much and want him back in my life but i know deep down i cant keep someone that doesnt want too but emotionally i need him to just go even if he has nowhere to go he chose this and decides to not love me i need to grieve and do me as emotionally its hurting me