Ss o at a fairly bad time in my relationship with my current love, I cheated on her with my friend for roughly a week. It was via text and I never once did anything to myself as I felt disgusted at the thought of doing it. I was disaccossiated with myself and emotions, and I wanted to keep said friend from being a whore with many other guys as she just broke up with her boyfriend. I told her she could do things with me if she didn't go and do things with random people. We agreed we'd forget all about it and remove all traces. Turns out she kept screenshots and told people, who in turn told my fiancee about it. I came clean and now she doesn't want me to touch her and can't look at me. She said she'd stay with me on conditions, which I quickly accepted as I truly am in love with her. Her family hates me and I hate myself, a well as found out I got her pregnant and she will be getting an abortion tomorrow. I deserve everything that comes my way in form of punishment. I'm the one that is doing all the crying though, I hurt her but why am I the one constantly in tears... I'm absolutely disgusted with myself and I hate myself.