I've been married for six years and have two children. When I was pregnant with my second child I caught my husband on a dating website. I forgave him but never could forget. The next few years I kept catching him in lies and finding messages to other women. I even caught him sexting a 16 year old. He would swear up and down that he never did anything physical with anyone but I couldn't believe him. Things got pretty bad and I ended up filing a restrainting order on him. He had become very controlling and aggressive. My parents moving in with us had made things worse. During the time that we were separated I ended up drinking too much and having sex with a friend. I was in a very vulnerable state and I regretted letting it happen. My husband reached out to me wanting to fix things, willing to change. I felt horrible because I knew he would feel different if he found out. He eventually asked me and I told the truth. He can't forgive me for what I did even though we were separated in his eyes I still shouldn't have done anything because we were still married. I understand where he's coming from but I also feel that he's not being fair. He has cheated on me emotionally many times and maybe even physically. And I made one mistake. My friends keep telling me to let him go but I don't know if that's what I want. I don't know if I should fight for my marriage. We both have made mistakes. I just can't believe that it's so easy for him to just walk away after my one mistake even though I stayed with him after his many.