Sunday, August 14, 2016 7:06 PM by Fourteen
When i was 14 i was madly in love with this boy and I moved away and he ended up ending things by never calling or writing again to me. I was devastated I LOVED HIM WITH ALL MY HEART. Fast forward 20 yrs and he contacts me through social media and we were talking for several weeks back and forth hes marrried with kids and im married and he made it clear that he was interested physically but it couldnt go further. I told him i was interested I never did it with him at 14 and always wondered what it would be like. We used to fool around and it was so hot back then but i never let him inside me. After talking dirty back and forth on text i got a room and asked him to meet me. He met me and i was so hot for him i met him in lingerie which i never wear and he has changed he got chubby but i didnt care all those feelings at 14 came back. I sucked him and he fingered me and i wanted it so bad but when i got on top to ride him he lost his hard on. He fingered m deep to make it up but he never got it up again. Then he had to go and kept telling me it was him he was nervous etc. He left me after only 30 min in hotel room and i felt the worse i have ever been not from cheating but because i got this room got lingerie and i couldnt keep him up. He kept calling and texting me after he left and i told myself i was done but he never called me when i was 14 and i couldnt do that to him or anyone. I answered finally and said its ok he obviously not interested in me he claims its not true that he was stressed and nervous about cheating. He asked me to try again and i said no then a few days later i asked him to meet me again for sex. Its been 3 days and i havent heard from him I am madly in love with him and all i do is think of him but i dont think i can be this side chick that doesnt hear from him for 3 days. Im married but all i think of is his fingering me and how i missed him touching me. I feel like i should just never talk to him again and move on in my life. But hes my weakness...
You are addicted to a loser. That make's you a loser's loser. Wake the fuck up!
You are nothing short of pathetic. And all it took was a 14 year old's crush to get you into bed. You and your crush have some major character flaws, which makes you perfect for one another. Leave your husband and keep the crush.
So did you guys have sex twice? Where is this fling going with a past like?
This story just left me hanging...did y'all get together again?What happened are y'all still sneaking around? Finish the story.
I guess i wasnt clear in my story- i asked him to meet me again and he said he was open to it but may have same issue. After that I didnt try to set up a time because i dont want to be dissapointed. After the 3 days of not talking I text him to end it because hes not offering me anything including a hard cock and i need to move on i mean i even paid for the hotel room and he never even offered to reimburse after his 30min non performance. All i have been thinking about today is him fingering me while i sucked his cock and seriously thinking about texting him to meet. Issue is if it was for certain i would do it but it took 3 weeks of dirty talk and texting just to get him to meet me that one time because hes busy with work then for it to end the way it did its total dissapointment. Why do i still want him though?!? My husband is ok but he has a small cock and i could never meet some stranger for just sex. I just wish we could actually fuck already so i can get it out of my system.
Lady you setting yourself up for disappointment even if you do meet him. His performance the 1st time is what his performance is all the time. If you think HE'S satisfying HIS wife you are sadly mistaken. 2ndly what makes you think your performance is good. Do you have big tits. Do you have a PHAT ass? Women want to all talk about the size of a penis but what do you got? What would you do if you walked in on your husband with another women? Face the facts that your body isn't perfect either. I'm sure your husband looks at other women and sees things they got that he knows you don't have. Your 1st love is a fat pussy lady. Face the fact that of you want good sex have it with a black stranger. He will ware your ass out. And you won't be able to give it back. All women want a big dick but only a few can really handle it. Stuck with your husband he does more for you then any man you will ever meet.
Lady don't waste your time. Your 1st love has become a loser. He's worthless. He got his and then made an excuse as to why he couldn't satisfy you. He can't satisfy his wife.
You are a worthless wife and a shitty mother. Sad, that people like you go through life shitting on those they promised to love. Go to hell.
So you still want this to continue...have you divorced your husband already?
So what's stopping you from texting him already?
Nothing can come of this but sex he has kids and Im married and not leaving my husband if things were different I would of seen myself landing up with him but life happened. I want to text him but 1. The whole couldnt get it up concerns me and 2. I sent him this long text confessing how ive always loved him and i wish things cld have been different but we should end things now hoping that he would at least just say he cares but he cant leave his kids and he just said ok and hasnt contacted me since. If he really cared he would have at least said meet me one more time or lets meet and talk but nothing its like it doesnt matter to him either way. How much more humiliation can i take? I know some of yall see me as sad but he was my first love and thats a powerful thing i dnt care that hes chubby i still want him to want me and want him to fuck me. 😔
We all have a 1st love but the most of us married our real love. And real live don't act like that. He doesn't care about you one bit. He's married and he loves his wife. He may be your 1st love but we're you HIS 1st love is the question and the answer is no. Especially if he responded the way he did. Your fooling yourself darling. I dont think your sad I think your putting your energy in the wrong place. And he's not worth it anymore. God sent him back to you to show you that he was never meant to be to begin with. It's like you said you would never leave your husband and if that's how you feel then why cheat on your husband. If it was the other way around you'd be losing your mind. Be the women your husband expected you to be and that's loyal and faithful. My question to you is does your vows mean anything to you at all?
What about your husband where is the love for him? It just sounds to me like you just want sex why are you hanging on for so long just because you thought you were in love at 14 really? Does your husband please you? Are you not happy with who you married? Have you contacted him or has he contacted you? Can you ever get over him?
i was with a guy who couldn't get it up the first time we met because he was nervous. This stuff happens! We now meet once a week for sex and he has no problems.
I feel like the biggest fucking idiot. After ending things i messaged him today asking to try again and he totally rejected me saying hes "felt terrible" since and cant. I look like the biggest idiot i should have left him alone at least i had ended things on my terms but now hes broken my heart again just like he did before. I feel like the biggest piece of shit. Im so stupid to get involved with this idiot and let him hurt me again.
Well think about how your husband feels. Why don't you put more energy into your husband. What's wrong with your husband? Why can't you give him this same kind of feelings? You were 14 when you liked this guy. What he showed you is that it would've never worked out between the 2 of you. Obviously your husband loved you enough to stick around so why can't you appreciate that? Why do you want to be that selfish. You are an idiot for trying to rekindle an 8th grade relationship
Fourteen....why were you calling....to try to have sex with him? Most Women leave past loves in the past when they get married...why marry if you loved someone else...So what now will you still try or will you leave that love in the past?
its complicated when he contacted me again he explained that apparently my mom talked to his mom and asked them to forbade him to contact me this is early 90's no email or text and long distance was expensive. Then he said he saw my mom a few years later and asked about me ans again shes like leave her alone. Here i thought that this man had no choice then to break my heart and wanted me still. I think he just wanted to be desired because hes fat has 2 kids and a lame life-and stupid me gave him the attention. Im so fucking done with him, i cant believe after he left me hanging i still wanted his limp dick. 😪
But what about your husband DO YOU LOVE HIM? And why would you want to cheat on your husband with a fat limp dick
This was a good story I usually don't see women who think about a man from a childhood crush...usually when you get married he is your love, past and present.But to each her own..So is this didn't happen fling over or will you try again? Do you love your husband still does he please you sexually?
fourteen im sorry to say but you are a terribly selfish person. Get your act together like what the hell you are acting like a fourteen year old. Yoi have absoluetly no right to hurt your husband who has been there by your side. Why did u marry him then? Where u insecure? Did you think you would never meet anyone worthwhile?
You need to talk to your husband and fix the fuck up yall both made. Your desiring a limp dick instead of your husband's hard one. It doesn't make sense. Grow the fuck up and leave the past olone.... Trust me your going to regret losing your husband.
I have a very close story. A few years back I found my first love online. I emailed him and we reconnected right away. I even went to another state to see him. The only difference in your story and mine is I was the one who couldn't go through with sex. I wanted to so badly but I also didn't want to hurt him or lose his friendship because I am married and I knew I could never offer him more than a friendship. Mt first love ended up falling in love with his now wife and she forbids him to speak to me now.
You got caught up in the old feelings you had for him. Take it as a lesson learned. The grass isn't greener on the other side. Try to focus on your husband and do some soul searching to try and figure out why you strayed and fix it. Most of all forgive yourself for making a bad choice. Hang in there! It will get better! Hugs!
That's what the fuck you get dumb bitch.
Lmao @ Julius' comment
Most of the comments on here are very judgmental. Not sure what that is all about. The stories of peole are interesting without laying a guilt trip on everyone. I know that my wife still has a thing for her first love, fortunately for me he passed away. She decided to go see him (in the days before email) and found out he was gone. Would she have fucked him? Probably. Does it mean she d9oesn't love me? Well who knows...she sure acts like she does or do you think she is just staying with me because he is gone? That was 20 years ago....