I cheated on my boyfriend again the first time I cheated on him I went back home to visit family and a friend came to me me and the guy have been friends for 4 years before I guess you could say it wasn't really cheating because whole time I was telling him to stop afterwards I called my boyfriend and told him he got mad took it the wrong way later that night he went out and he had sex with his ex-girlfriend well he called me and told me what happened afterwards and I forgave him and then the next day he went out had sex with her again I could never really trust him after that things are getting better between us in he left to go to another state and if I had kissed me and things almost led to sex to him stopped him and I had told my boyfriend and he broke up with me and I begged for him back and we eventually took me back but I had to talk to his mother I change dates again and living across the hall from the sky and he was helping me study for classes and I want to talk to him one morning after he kissed me about why he should do it again and everything and we ended up having sex I don't know if I should tell my boyfriend or not because I don't want to lose him I love him