Salut,I readed the storyes of some people on this site and I decided to post mine too. So here it is : About 4 years ago I was with this girl named Rebeka,at first it was just attraction,she saw me while training with football team. She looked at me and smiled beautyfull at me. She then sparked my interest in her,she was 15 i was 17,after 1 month we were toghether. Then I found out from her sister that she had a long distance relationship when we hooked up. I confronted her and she told me that she will break out with that guy,and she did. After 2 months she send me a text :"do you know how to make a girl arouse?" ( she was a virgin and I didn't whant to rush things because I kinda falled in love with her,that's why 'till then I didn't initiated any sex realeting conversations). Next day I fingered her and in about 2 weeks we ended up having sex,4 out of 7 days a week,maybe more. Now things go bad : She goes to her gramma in sumer vacantion,where she kissed a guy and onthr one later fingered her and she did him a handjob. I don't know why I forgived her when she comed home and we were back toghether, I know ,to easy. Fast foward to another vacantion she did the same ,she was fingered by this guy and she did him a handjob. After that I was with her just for sex. Not really relationship,more like friends with benefits. Soon her parents find out and we end seeing eachother. Now is were I messed up : I met then girlfriend now wife,a sweet girl,hard working,mannerd and really kind. She made me feel like nothing before,it was awsome but it was a catch she was a virgin and she wanthed me to deflorate her just in the wedding night. (we were both 19 at this time) I respected that but after 6 months I just whanted someone to make me cum. I felt really aroused most of the times. Here is where I mesed up : I texted Rebeka,my ex, for a mutual oral sex after once i did it to her . I had a bad feeling about cheathing to then my girlfrien now wife,but it was too late,she was at my dor,we did oral sex and she left. I don't know guys if you experenced that feeling of "what I have done?! I should never did that" after you cum. But that happend to me. I felt so miserable,now thinkin' I need to see my girlfriend honest and happy-to-see-me eyes while I was miserable and a stupid liar. It consumed me from interior the feeling of guilt and remorse for what I did. 6 months later,at 1 year aniversary I asked her to be my wife on the bench we first kiss,it was a very beautyfull day both we were like little kids. And she said YES. I was so happy,but then I realised that that it needs to happen. I need to let her know what I did before we were maried,and I did. That day I tared apart a pice of her heart, I felt like a scumbag,full of s''t,I betreyed her. Here I was,I did what I hated. But my fiancee had the power to forgive me. Now we are happly maried and faithfully to eachother,it is the woman of my life,but even if it pased 2 years from when i cheated I still look at her thinking " i love you and I still feel bad for what i did to yo" . But I know now what I whand for my life,and for me it won't ever happen again. Happend to you something close to this? or you heared about? What is your opinion?