I was content being the "good wife". I had always been a very sexual person but once I married I knew I had to stop that. I was even ok with the idea because I was so in love with my husband. Till it all changed one night when everyone was asleep. I saw my husbands phone on the table and decided to just take a quick look. Omg I would never have imagined all the things I would find. He was talking to like 30 different girls on social media dating apps and Craigslist. I even found a message from the "one" he slept with. I'll never forget she text him " was it tight enough for you?". This Pos right? So of course I have an emotional breakdown and kick him out. Then I start feeling like I was afraid to lose him for good. We share kids together. I let him come back with conditions after three days. Stupid, I know. He behaves for months and I begin to live normally again but still I could not forgive. So I'm bored one day and decide to create a profile on a dating site just to see. I told myself I'll just see what it's all about. I end up talking to this cute guy and I swear he tells me everything I needed to hear. And for a week we talked all day long. We sent eachother pics and it just felt so right with him. The time comes and I finally agree to meet. I was so nervous I felt like I could not stop sweating. How embarrassing. I meet him up at a local coffee shop and he's wearing a cap and he had a beard and he was just perfect. So we chat and I'm so nervous trying to be cool yet sexy. About 20 mins in I make an excuse to leave because I just had to gather myself. I was a ball of nerves. Scared my husband would somehow know or pass by. As I leave we hug and then he kisses me. I will say it was intense like I could feel my you know what throb. I leave and again we talk daily for a couple more days before I'm able to get out again. This time I went to his house. I knew I wanted him to fuck the shit out of me. We had also exchanged sexy pics by this time too and his dick looked YUMM! We chatted and then he started kissing me. And I remember laying on his bed and asked him "what do you want?". He said " I want to be inside you". And we literally had the best most intense kinky hardcore sex you can imagine. It was everything and more. At the end we showered together and I left back home to my husband. That night my husband came to bed and he ended up fucking me too. In my mind this was like a fuck you to him. To wrap things up I've been seeing my "friend" for almost a year now and I just don't know how to stop. Some days I feel like I'm in love with both of them. I don't know how this will end.