Sunday, April 17, 2016 3:04 AM by Wasteoftime
I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years now, we've been dating on and off since the 8th grade and though out highschool. He's cheated on me and some stupid stuff during those years but I let it go cause we were stupid teenagers. When we were out of highschool I told him that if he really wants to be single and free just go because I don't want to be hurt anymore. We when a whole year pretty well and I was so happy, we are finally young adults and the child's play is over and we can think about the future. This last February ive been going through a lot with school my family and my health and I got very depressed, and was having trouble healing from the past hurts. But I finally came along, I couldn't believe it my heart and soul had finally healed up. My trust in him was restored and I fell so much more Inlove with him. On Valentine's Day he was absolutely wonderful, he finally showed me some appreciation. We went out to dinner and we had a great talk, but then we talked about my depressing stage. I apologized and I explained to him what's been going on(like he doesn't already know). And then he told me something...at work a girl gave him her number. I felt a lump in my throat and tears welled up. I asked if he took it.. And he said at the moment he did because I was being bitchy..but he threw it out because he thought of me and what we had together. He held my hands and looked me in the eye and told me what a changed man he is now and that he would never do that. I cried a little because I actually felt a little relieved. But a few weeks later I checked his texts and there she was...they have been texting all month and hung out at a hookah spot..
I've been on pause all month....I don't really know what to do now, he cried when I told him to leave and has been trying really hard to show me that he truly wants to be with me, I want to forgive him but I feel like I can't. He's hurt me so much I think it's too late..