I was with my boyfriend for 5 years. We had been fighting a lot for the past year. Two months ago, he went out of our home country for doing his masters.

Needless to say, two weeks ago, I found out he cheated on me with someone else. The worst part was that he told me he didn't love me anymore and that he loved the other girl. He lied to me teeling me that he wanted to be alone to find who he was, but he never stop dating the girl he cheated on with. When we talked, he told me he didn't feel sorry about what he did, that it was really easy for him to do that and that he didn't want to try fixing the things between us. 

Right now he is dating that girl, he even tells her how much he loves her and he deleted me from all social media sites (instagram, FB, twitter, whatsapp). He also changed his behavior with me completely and he is really cold and rude when I asked him for answers. 

It's so awfull that someone with whom you share so many things, could change you so fast... like changing your clothes. Right now he is really happy while I'm completely devastated figuring out how scared I was to be alone and how should I start living my new life on my own. 

Sometimes I think what did I did wrong, and if someone will ever want to be with me again. 

I would like to take out all the pain, clean up all the tears and start healing my mind, my heart and my soul.

I know we will never be back or regret what he did, so I would love to be able to forgive and forget him.