My wife & I have been together a long long time and we have 5 kids.. We have a great sex life and I am well packed I'm about 8 inches and thick cock I can only wear magnum condoms for comfort.. Over the years simply because it's only the two of us I've noticed how my wife isn't as tight as she use to be but it's still good sex. I've had an affair a couple years back and I noticed the tightness difference between the two of them and it bothered me so much that I had to end that affair before the sex got 2 gooooood.. Had that lady been a freak like my wife I would've been in trouble!!!.... But back to my wife, we both love porn and I've noticed multiple times when looking at porn on her phone I can see what she searches and it's always "anaconda cock" or "long black dick" I didn't make it no issue because I have a big cock but the fact that she's fascinated with even longer ones like a 12 inch type makes me wonder is she getting pleased anymore.. So in efforts to keep the spice I brought her some really big dildos and she was like a kid in the candy store she absolutely loved playing with them and yes It was fun to watch her fuck and cum so many times but now I can't help but wonder if she's really wanting to feel the real thing?... I mean why search for more when I got a lot of cock isn't that being greedy?.... Now Before u kill me for cheating I'd like to note that she's cheated to with a female and a male. I've never gotten over that so I don't know if I would ever stay 100% loyal because I can't fully trust her. I know for a fact that she wants a monster cock to beat her p***y up basically kill it and I can't help but think it's simply because she wants something new does this make any sense and are we doomed??