Hi everyone, I'm 19 years of age, I am currently dating someone that I've been with for 2 years now. We have been through a lot together, I have seen his bad side and he has seen mine. I struggle with depression and I recently discovered that I am in fact pregnant. I know that I can't have the baby, I am not financially or mentally stable at this time time of my life. I have grown up in a very dysfunctional family, and abuse. I am still learning to accept the unfortunate events of my past and it is difficult. I am prescribed weekly antidepressants, which I do not take properly, and I self harm as well as a way to escape my emotional baggage. Lately, after admitting to my boyfriend that I am pregnant, he hasn't been around. He avoids me constantly, and it's hurts me. I almost feel as if I'm becoming accommodated to this behaviour. Just a few days before finding that I am pregnant, I had found in his history porn Stars' name in the browser, then a notification from a girl who wears skimpy clothes. I was enraged, I felt unattractive. I then aggressively confronted him by shouting. He only tells the truth when I raise my voice, things got physical and one thing led to another next thing I realize and I'm being pushed out the door. I feel like I am dealing with this alone. I am contemplating on whether or not I should cheat on him. People tell me to leave him but I don't know what to do. I am young and confused.